Saturday, July 16, 2011
Why?
Why do I do this, and why am I here on the online community. I feel like I have come to a point in my life where I am ready and able to help others in some way. Wether it is someone looking for the "right" spiritual path for them, some things that are going on in their life, or a fellow Soldier who is having some problems. I am in no way claiming that I have all the answers, but what I do have is knowledge from lessons that I have learned in my life, and things that I have been through. I feel that we all have things to contribute, but we have to realize when the time is right, and for me the time is now.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
It must just be me
So today I became convinced that I am cursed. It seems like every time I go out to collect water samples for work, it ends up raining. Usually it is only enough to be annoying, but today it poured. The curse is getting stronger LOL.
I got a phone call from my mom last night, and what do ya know, she was asking to borrow money. I will say this, it has been a long time since she has asked. I mean seriously, I am trying to make sure my family is taken care of, an that my bills are paid, and you still call to ask if you can borrow money. Honestly, if I had it, I might have loaned it to her, but she said it was for a hospital bill, which doesn't make sense, since she is covered on my dads insurance. I don't know. And just like always, when she found out I didn't have it, she didn't stay on the phone long. She was saying some weird things, like you only get paid on the 1st and 30th don't you, so you wont have anything this week. What difference does it make when I get paid. Until I am able to support my family, have money left over on payday, have money put aside in savings, and still be able to go out and do things, I don't think I need to be loaning anyone any money. Especially when I'm not sure that I will get it back.
I know that may sound cruel, but I have to go with what I know. They say that we learn our money management skills from our parents, and I believe it. I am just now getting to a point, where I can make sure that bills are paid, and that there is still food on the table. Granted when I was growing up, we never really went without food, but I did have to move twice within one year. I did have the humiliation of being called into the guidance counselors office so they could find out what was going on at my house, because the school got wind that we had no power. I think its because of everything that happened in such a short time that I am trying so hard to make sure things are better for my family than what I had, and what I had to go through. But like with most things, just when things seem to be going good, something comes along, and says STOP!!! not so fast, you must take 2 steps back, and halt your progress for a while.
But that's ok. I know that things are getting better, and that we are doing alot better with somethings then we have in the past. We have a roof over out head, (which still needs to be cleaned, but still LOL), food in our house (even if I do have to shop every payday), a way to get around, gas for said vehicle(s), and aside from a few bumps in the road, we are happy, and on the way to a good life. Now if only the Army would stop trying to interfere with that, I would appreciate it LOL.
Still having a hard time believing that I am going to be 29 in less than a week. I found a birthday ritual that I am going to modify a little bit, and do on my birthday, so go along with my altar. Basically, it is using the fact that its a birthday, and the start of a new year, and a way to renew ourselves, and start looking at changes that we want to make. Specifically, what bad habits do we want to break, and what habits to we want to improve on in the "New Year" Guess I should start working on my list LOL
Until Next Time
Blessed Be
I got a phone call from my mom last night, and what do ya know, she was asking to borrow money. I will say this, it has been a long time since she has asked. I mean seriously, I am trying to make sure my family is taken care of, an that my bills are paid, and you still call to ask if you can borrow money. Honestly, if I had it, I might have loaned it to her, but she said it was for a hospital bill, which doesn't make sense, since she is covered on my dads insurance. I don't know. And just like always, when she found out I didn't have it, she didn't stay on the phone long. She was saying some weird things, like you only get paid on the 1st and 30th don't you, so you wont have anything this week. What difference does it make when I get paid. Until I am able to support my family, have money left over on payday, have money put aside in savings, and still be able to go out and do things, I don't think I need to be loaning anyone any money. Especially when I'm not sure that I will get it back.
I know that may sound cruel, but I have to go with what I know. They say that we learn our money management skills from our parents, and I believe it. I am just now getting to a point, where I can make sure that bills are paid, and that there is still food on the table. Granted when I was growing up, we never really went without food, but I did have to move twice within one year. I did have the humiliation of being called into the guidance counselors office so they could find out what was going on at my house, because the school got wind that we had no power. I think its because of everything that happened in such a short time that I am trying so hard to make sure things are better for my family than what I had, and what I had to go through. But like with most things, just when things seem to be going good, something comes along, and says STOP!!! not so fast, you must take 2 steps back, and halt your progress for a while.
But that's ok. I know that things are getting better, and that we are doing alot better with somethings then we have in the past. We have a roof over out head, (which still needs to be cleaned, but still LOL), food in our house (even if I do have to shop every payday), a way to get around, gas for said vehicle(s), and aside from a few bumps in the road, we are happy, and on the way to a good life. Now if only the Army would stop trying to interfere with that, I would appreciate it LOL.
Still having a hard time believing that I am going to be 29 in less than a week. I found a birthday ritual that I am going to modify a little bit, and do on my birthday, so go along with my altar. Basically, it is using the fact that its a birthday, and the start of a new year, and a way to renew ourselves, and start looking at changes that we want to make. Specifically, what bad habits do we want to break, and what habits to we want to improve on in the "New Year" Guess I should start working on my list LOL
Until Next Time
Blessed Be
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Updates
So its been a while, I really need to get on the ball about updating and writting more often. So lets see where to begin. Well we finally got the truck to pass inspection. It was close but it was finally quite enough. I am currently waiting to hear from Eastern Illinois University to see if I have been accepted into their Bachelors in General Studies program. I know it sounds kind of lame that its only in general studies, but at this point, all I really need is the degree. I can focus more specifically and get licencsed when it gets closer to time for me to retire. Im actually really excited at the thought that I might be able to get my degree from a college back home, even though I havent lived there in 10 years. Starting to get things together for my birthday. I already have most of everything I need for my birthday altar, and will possibly be doing a bbq or something the weekend before. Check out my Picassa album for some interesting pics that I took in the woods yesterday, provided I can find a way to get them off of my phone.
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